Life in Denim and Flip Flops

So I want to sit in class and write blog posts in my notebook during class. Not cool I know. That's the small college experience for you. You're supposed to pay attention when there are only 20 people in class. Especially when it's a guest speaker. But it's dull. However, at least it looks like I'm paying attention and taking notes. A classmate is knitting in the front row. That really bothers me. You're obviously not paying attention, and now the clickety clack of your knitting needles would be keeping me from paying attention, if I were actually trying to. Also, it's presentations like this that make me feel confident about my own presentation skills. Also a friend today told me I have a good phone voice. I wonder what she means by that. I don't have an overly annoying voice? Makes me think back to voice lessons and my prof really wanting me to alter my speaking voice because I was 'damaging' my vocal cords. I'm glad I refused at th...

Ugh, I totally wanted to keep this more up to date. I might have to force myself to update on certain days or it just might not get done. The excuse these past 2 weeks has been homework and more homework. Ok, well that and getting a phone interview and attending a conference. :) Exciting, no? I'm totally on cloud nine about the job interview. It feels so good to finally get a callback and feel loved again. As much as I love my friends for telling me that this would come, it was getting really hard to keep believing in myself. Honestly, I don't think I'd ever been so down on myself before. Like E said, I'm a totally different person now. It's sad but true. Even if I don't get this job, just konwing that I made it past that first round makes me feel that much better about myself. It's totally what I needed to hear. I've still got major prepping to do before it happens, but now I've got a significant assignment out of my way, I feel a better about doin...

If only I'd known that I would create a monster. A. now insists that she's winning at the blogging game. Although totally true, I have a good reason for currently losing. I'm been trying (read, not succeeding) at using blogging as my reward for being productive. Yeah, sadly I'm like a 5-year old child when I'm tired; I really only function well in a reward-rich environment. However, I've been failing with this lately. I managed not to blog, but I just couldn't keep myself on track. I was up late finishing a really frustrating project, but I had no one but myself to blame. That doesn't mean I didn't try and blame other people, like my professor. :) Ugh, anyway, on to less frustrating topics. I realized today what a weird situation I was in. I'm a regular viewer of a few vlogs on youtube. Nothing odd there, but today was one of the kids' birthday. So I wished him happy birthday in the comments. Now I wish people I'm not really great friends...

I haven't blogged seriously since probably 2005-ish. I'd forgotten how much I missed it. It was totally a coping mechanism, and to be honest I'm not sure what I've substituted for it since then. I'm not really sure what this blog is going to be yet. Probably boring musings and comments on life and job searching and books I'm reading. Just a place to throw my thoughts for future amusement. Because seriously, what is more amusing that looking back on 3 years ago and laughing at what seems significant and unbearable? I really wish I could go back to those "problems." Now my problems are slightly more real...like not having a job once I graduate. Or not having a place to live. I'm gonna go with that slightly outweighs not having the 4th floor of the library to myself to study. Ugh, just thinking about college and class makes me realize how badly I miss history and lit courses. What I wouldn't give to be back at Cornell in a medieval history course...